The Lonely Shadow

I stood by in the darkness
Shying away from the Light
Scared to go out in the open
Alone by myself...

A beautiful girl came along
Retreating to the dark corner
In search of solitude
Away from all mockery
And invisible hands of society

We gave each other company
My voice gave her solace
And she quietly dispelled
The darkness all around

With every passing day
The world grew more beautiful
In the new found joy
We felt with each other

And then one day it happened
What they call a miracle
She held me tight
And said that I am hers
And hers alone forever

From the foundation of hope
Rose fast and high
A beautiful dream castle
Soaring through the skies

It was not long
Before the ill fated night
When the thunderbolt struck
When she said that I am not hers
And that I was just her shadow
Only to stand by her side forever

The castle came rattling down
Crashing through its foundation
The deafening sound echoed
Through the silent walls
And muted the silent scream
Of my broken concious self

I let go of her hand
And she kept walking
Into the light of freedom
In search of her love
While I retreated into the darkness
Where I now belong

The robes of black
Clothed me in full
And welcomed me back
Into its wide open arms

I blended with ease
Into the pitch dark night
For I am nothing
But just a lonely shadow.

The Double Edged Sword

A close friend of mine is getting engaged and then getting married in a couple of months. I am so happy for him that his life is going to the next stage and into a new dimension of responsibility and love. But at the same time, there was a slight pinch. That I am still single. Long ago, I had given up my hopes and handed over the reigns to my parents – “find me a girl and I will love the crap out of her”.

Its not jealousy. Its just a sudden reminder that your close friend got what you want, a bit sooner than you did. It made me wonder or rather ponder on a particular train of thought.

Why does everything have to have a pro and a con? I know its to maintain balance in Nature, to maintain the equilibrium. I also know the theory about the necessity of paradoxes to enjoy life. But every once in a while, in situations like this, it makes you ponder why does it have to be so! Even though you know the answer to your question. It just feels better to put the question out and what better place to put it than in this infinitely ever expanding cyberspace.

I guess I have to focus on the answer. That I have to sit through it and accept both the sides of the coin. All I can do now is focus more on the positive energies from this event that my close friend is moving on, rather than me moping around in the dark with a ridiculous question. However, on the bright side, fate will turn in my favour. Its just a matter of time ...